Paperback: 230 Pages
Publisher: Dutton 10.15.09
Caitlin's best friend Ingrid has killed herself and left her a journal explaining to her in letters to her about her decision to end her life. In Nina LaCour's debut novel, she touches upon themes that teens face on a daily basis. The loss of a friend, the loss of innocence and the idea of pulling yourself out of this and trying to move on.
Caitlin's journey takes us on a myriad of feelings as she reads through the journal and tries to piece together why she never saw the signs of the depression eating away at her friend. She in some respect feels extremely responsible for Ingrid's circumstance. She alienates herself from her friends at school and refused to see a therapist that her parent feel is necessary to get over her grief.
But through this grief she meets Dylan who shows her that she can still be friend without forgetting her friend. Caitlin also finds a romantic interest in someone who was always there along the periphery. But because she and Ingrid were so tight, she never allowed any guy close enough. Caitlin also has to be the one to tell Ingrid's romantic interest that she really was into him. As Caitlin reads through the journal, the desperation hit me and I found myself crying big fat tears.
I really enjoyed this book and highly recommend it.